Newlyweddedness..... (yep, this word only exists in Mary's dictionary)

Can I just say that I LOVE married life? Well, I guess that I can because this is my blog which gives me the right to say whatever I want. Well, we have been married for 2 months (tomorrow) and I couldn't be more ecstatic about life and the future. God is amazing. I'm tellin' ya. He will never cease to amaze me in His consideration for His children and for giving them even beyond their dreams and desires. It's awesome!!!!

I had the amazing privilege to be in one of my best friends weddings a couple of weeks ago. Andrea Lorenz is now Andrea Dennis!!!! Woo hoo! I'm so happy for her! :) It was so cold that day, but it was worth it. It was beautiful outside.

Ryan's Pop-pop (Grandfather) went to be with the Lord last week, so that was a sad time for him. I wish I could have met him, but I will someday. His life seemed full and purpose filled. I'm sure everyone who knew him will miss him. We went to Massachusetts for the funeral over the weekend (26 hours of driving in 48 hours). It was a fun trip. Bittersweet, but it was nice to meet the family. (Now, I wish I had a pic of Ryan and his Pop-pop to post.)

It's interesting that I haven't had very many best friends in my life and that within a year, Ryan has become the best friend of my life.... literally and in so many ways. It's great having a husband, but to have a husband as my best friend.... that's irreplaceable. I'm very cautious about who I let in my life (well closely that is) and God just has the most amazing plans for our life even when we only see in part. This time last year I was just starting to talk to Ryan after church services and realizing that he was a fun guy.... now, he's still fun, but he's my husband. Don't give up on your dreams and definitely don't take second best because you're tired of waiting for something. If you say you trust God, then trust Him, don't take things out of His hands. He's got this. I learned that the hard way. If you're tired of being patient for something, then give it to God and stop being impatient; the dream is probably right around the corner.

Anywho, I guess that's an update of my life that I love.

Post wedding life

Wow, what to write. The last post was a month BEFORE my wedding. Let's see. If you want to see pics, you need to look me up on Facebook under Mary Hallquist.

The wedding week was really smooth. I had Thursday and Friday off before the wedding, so that helped a lot, but the over all process and day went VERY stress free. It was literally the wedding of my dreams, but it was even better than that. I can say that about Ryan too. He is the man of my dreams, but he is even better than that. It's amazing what God will do for you when you give yourself completely to Him and let Him run your life. Ry and I still look at each other and say, "Wow, am I really married to the person I was just an aquaintance with 7 years ago?" and "This time last year we had barely said a few words to each other and now we're married."

(The above pic is when he met me halfway down the aisle and kissed my hand before we walked up to the front. Awwwww.) The wedding day was beautiful, it started at 5am for me. Got to the church by 7am. It was fun in the girls room, there were about 5 different "stations" going on at once. It was great! I actually saw Ryan before the ceremony. That was a precious moment for me. Once the photographers and the videographers got what they wanted, we were actually alone for a few minutes. It was very, very precious. Plus, doing it that way, we got to go take pics off location and that meant I got to spend most of my wedding morning with my hubby. :) I can honestly say that I didn't cry the whole day. I got teary eyed a few times.... well, more like 8 or 9 times, but that's it. I was proud that I didn't mess up Robert's make-up job.

Charissa did an amazing job with my hair. I had, what felt like, 5 extra pounds on my head with the hair extensions, but it was worth it. That and the ribbon looked awesome! Rhonda did amazing on Ryan's hair, he looked like a rockstar. If you didn't see Ry's tux, it was amazing! He was hot! Definitely not your typical groom. All my bridesmaids were absolutely beautiful and helped me out a lot. :) The groomsmen looked very handsome. Thanks girlies. Nicole did an amazing job helping coordinate things the night of the rehearsal and the day of the wedding. Geez. So many thanks and people who helped us. Erik wrote us an amazing song called, "Silly Love." Very cool indeed. I know there are a TON more people but you are not forgotten, k? =D

Yes, my Mom cried, but I heard that a lot of people did. Ryan and I read our own vows (which most people cried about) and he also made a declaration of covering over me too. It was definitely a God ordained ceremony and I know that He was smiling about it. :) I missed a few people who have gone on to be in eternity, but I couldn't miss them for too long cause I know they are happy and I was happy, so it was okay. I was so happy to have our family and all of our friends there to help us celebrate.

The reception was pretty amazing too. We had a semi-masquerade and walked into The Phantom of the Opera. I was in pain from my dress, but I just tried to force that aspect out and just have fun and have fun I did. I loved having my first dance with my hubby to one of our fav songs. I loved dancing with all of our friends to the Cha Cha Slide. We cut the cake but didn't eat it (we heard it was awesome though), we fed each other strawberries. :)

Anywho, it was an amazing day and I am TRUELY blessed with Ryan. Married life is amazing. I love him even more every day, even though that doesn't seem possible. I am filled with joy when I can come home to him. He makes me laugh. We pray together and have a lot of fun together. He's already been sick in this short time and I am happy to say that he is well and I enjoyed being able to be his wife and take care of him.

Oh, the honeymoon was great too. We went to Oglebay Resort in WV. It was great, it felt like we were the only ones at the resort, so anytime we went and did anything, it was just us. The breakfast was amazing! I enjoyed my vaca with my new hubby too.

So, there ya go. There's my life thus far. I'm sure I will have some more to post about in the near future. <3>

Wedding and life update 3

Wow, it's been a while since my last post.... I think.... I don't know. Time is at hyper speed and it's just going faster and faster. We are 36 days from our wedding. That's 1 month and 6 days. Geez, it's going fast. I feel like I haven't stopped. Well, I have a bit this week. I've had two nights of just straight rest. It's been nice. I needed it.

What's new.... everything. Ha ha Well, my dress came in this week, everyone at Alan Ray was gushing over it cause none of them have seen it in person (yeah, for those who didn't know, I had to drive to Lima to check it out in person cause they were the only ones in ALL of Ohio that had even 1 sample of the dress). I'm really excited to try it on, that happens next Tuesday.

We just ordered our masks yesterday. They are pretty sweet. We had our couple's shower last Saturday, it was sooo much fun! I will be posting pics to facebook soon. I have Ryan's family shower tomorrow.

I need RSVP's from people for the wedding. Ha ha The deadline is August 1. Come on people! ;)

We are also getting an apartment for now. We just haven't found the exact house that we wanted, so we will continue looking after a few months. It's in Canal, so it's halfway for everything for the both of us. Ryan will be moving in the first of August and I will be joining him after the wedding (obviously). Although, that brings up a conversation that I had with a coworker, she's younger and when I said we were getting an apartment and he was moving in, she asked, "Oh, you're not moving in?" And I said, "No, not until after we're married." Then she said, "Oh, okay." Not that people at work don't know what I stand for, it's just that people don't even think about someone not living with someone before they are married to even be an option. It got me to thinking that in earlier days, someone who was living with someone outside of marriage would be the outcast and now, it's "normal" for that to happen and that the "outcast" or the "different" point of view is to wait to live together until after marriage. How messed up our views have become. Just some thoughts.

That's really all that I can think of at the moment. Adios!

Engagement Pictures!!!!!

Wanna see our engagement pics? Here ya go! The pictures are now up in the "preview" section now athttp://www.noahjoyphoto.com - password is "MaryRyan061409".

Wedding update Part Deux

I am still in total awe and amazement that God cares for His children so much to make someone who so perfectly compliments them in every way. Yes, that means that I am still completely and utterly in love with my future husband. I know that love is just going to continue to grow and strengthen with time.

Anywho, as far as wedding plan updates go. We put together about 85% of our invitations on the 6th. We will finish up next week and then they will go in the mail on the 25th. Can't wait for everyone to see them. (As far as ERC members go.... sorry, you will be getting a general invite through the bulletin. That's WAY too many invitations, but everyone is invited to the wedding, that's for sure.)

Let's see, we ordered Ryan's tux. Totally excited to see him in it! It's going to be awesome! We are definitely not the traditional or the norm kind of people, it's awesome that I got a guy like that! We will look absolutely smashing darling. (Said in my best snooty accent. Ha ha)

What else..... oh we went and took our engagement pics yesterday. I am sooooo excited to see the outcome. It was sooooo much fun!!! We had two different sets. One a little more dressy and then a casual one. John Yao is amazing (www.noahjoyphotography.com), so be looking out for those within the next couple of weeks.

Hmmm..... I think that's about it as far as updates go. This is all so exciting!!!! It's a blast planning our wedding. We are still looking at houses, so continue to pray as we search. We need to find one by the end of the month if we want to be in by the wedding date.

Grace and peace everyone! (Leave me some comments. I never know who reads this if anyone. =P Hee hee)

The plans I have for you......

So, this morning I was sitting here just thanking God for all that He has blessed me with in this year so far. Then that got me thinking, "Wow, am I really marrying this man that I knew 7 years ago?" Then God brought to my remembrance this scripture:


Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope."


God will never leave us abandoned and He will always keep His promises. Even when we don't know or even realize what He's doing in our lives, He's got it all worked out. For our good. For our welfare. Plans to give us a future. Plans to give us a hope. All we have to do is trust in Him. Not get too antsy and get ahead of Him. His timing is and always will be perfect. He's promised it to us, it's there, He is just waiting for HIS moment to give it to us.


The next couple of verses say, "12 Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. 13'You will seek Me and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart."

Did you realize that God listens to us? I mean, not just the flippant way that we listen to people..... you know, "selective hearing" and all that. No, it says that if we call upon the Lord and pray to Him, He WILL listen to us. It's not something to take lightly. Our prayers are heard by a living and ever loving God.


It also says that if we seek Him with all of our heart we WILL find Him. When we're in the desert times, God is there. We can find Him at any time. He's not some vast mirage. He's not just some "thing" in the sky. He's real and tangible. I know there have been times in my life when I didn't feel like praising God or praying to God, but when I did and I did it with all of my heart, He was right there, surrounding me. It's an amazing thing to have a God who loves His children so very much.


Anyway, I guess that's just it for right now. Wedding plans are going smoothly. We got the invitations in and they are amazing. Can't wait for everyone to see them. :) We are so excited!!!! We are in the process of buying a house too, so be agreeing with us on that. Love you all. Leave some comments! Grace and peace!

Wedding Update Numero Uno

Wow, I'm getting married. Some days it's still a little surreal. Sometimes Ryan and I will just look at each other and be like, "Are we really marrying the person that we knew 7 years ago?" Hee hee God is soooo good. I'm amazed daily by His goodness and mercy.

Well, wedding plans are in full force now. (Not like they haven't been since the 2nd week of March, but oh well, now I can talk about them.) We ordered my dress 6 weeks ago. It's amazing. We already knew we were getting married at ERC and we have had the reception place picked out for awhile too. The mother's all have their dresses. The bridesmaid dresses are picked out (gorgeous on everyone). The Jr. Bridesmaid, Machala, has her dress. Ava's is being ordered this week. We found the guys tuxes. Still looking for Ryan's though. Got his ring.... it's amazing... as cool as mine actually. The invitations are being ordered tomorrow and the list goes on and on. It really is an exciting and fun time. I know time is flying by and it will be here before we know it, but the planning is a blast!

Ryan is doing well, as am I. It's nice having someone there beside you in the journey. No doubt. We're looking for a house. We have our eyes on one right now. We're just praying that God will work everything out.

So, I guess there's a little update on my life of wedding planning. Can't wait!!!! 116 days! August 29th baby! Woo hoo!!!!

I'm engaged!!!!

So, we went to Rising Park in Lancaster for a picnic on April 17. It was a gorgeous day. I decided to take my camera to get more pics of us (little did I know that Ryan prayed that I would bring it cause he knew I would want pictures that night). So, we ate, had fun, took some pics of us. It was a lot of fun.

Then we decided to trek

up the mountain. Ha ha Well, it is. So, we

were having fun doing that too. We found a semi secluded spot, but the view wasn't the greatest, so he wanted to walk to the other parts, but there were couples at every crevice. So, he said, let's go back to "our" spot where we were before.

So, we were watching the sun set. Looking at the gorgeous view.

Hugging each other. Then I realized that his right hand had disappeared from around me and I didn't think too much of it.

Then we were talking about how perfect the night was and he said, "Well, then, I guess there's only one more thing to do." That's when he held up the ring in front of me and in between us and I covered my mouth with my hand and was like, "Oh my God!' Yes, I said it more than once. Ha ha Then he asked me, "Will you be my Isha?" For those who don't know Isha means wife/woman in Hebrew. I said, "YES!!!!" Duh, of course I said yes. God finally gave me the man that He created just for me. :) So, thus was our evening.

The diamond is a black diamond which actually is older than a white diamond. It's from space....a meteor to be exact. It's stronger than a white diamond and it's so perfectly me. I'm sooooooooooooo excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Our wedding date is August 29th at 1:30pm at ERC. Everyone is invited to the wedding. Hope to see you there.

Also, for those who want to know, we are registered at: Target, Walmart, and amazon.com (which you have to look under Ryan's name for some reason), we will also be accepting gift cards to these locations and monetary gifts (we are going to be buying a house too, so we're not sure what all we need, so cash is appreciated).

 

50 questions about a certain someone......

Can you answer 50 questions about just 1 person?OK, CHOOSE YOUR PERSON!

1) What’s their full name? Ryan David H.........

2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Ummm...duh......me

3) Do you get along with this person all the time? So far, yes and I don't believe that the answer will ever be a no for this question

5) Has he/she ever cooked for you? He made me a salad once

6) Is this person older than you? Nope

7) Have you ever danced with this person? Yes, I have. Tis good times.

8) Are you related to this person? When I marry him, will that count? ;)

9) Are you really close to him/her? Extremely so

10) Nickname? Ry

11.) Do they have a nickname for you? Does baby count? Ha ha IDK

12) How many times do you talk to this person in a week? Everyday

13) Do you think they will repost this? Doubt it

14) Could you live with this person? Could I....of course.....after we're married.

15) How long have you known this person? Depends on how you look at it......7 years or 7 months

16) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? Yes

17) If you ever moved away would you miss them? Yeah, moving away without him is not an option, so it's not even a valid question.

18) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person? Stupid/fun......ha ha foam swords in Walmart....that's all I gotta say.

19) Do you know everything about this person? Probably not everything, but I'm sure I'm close.

20) Would you date this person’s siblings? Negative. Even if he did have a brother....I'm a little hooked on him.....okay, okay....a lot hooked on him.

21) Have you ever made something with this person? I put a pic of us in a frame for him.

22) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person? Negatory.

23) Is this person on drugs? No.

24) Have you ever worn this person’s clothes? Nope

25) Does this person wear your clothes? That's another nope.

26) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person? THAT would be nuts. I don't know.

27) Have you ever heard this person sing? Yes, and he's got a great voice.

28) Do you and this person have a saying? A few

29) Do you know this persons facebook password? If he had one, probably.

30) Have you and this person kissed? Well, isn't this a fun question to make people guess about?

31) What is your favorite thing about this person? There is no one thing. He is my favorite person. That's because of all the things combined that make him who he is.

32) What is your favorite PHYSICAL feature on this person? Ha ha That's a long list people....we'll go with smile.....I can never get enough of it. It makes my day.

33) Has this person ever given you anything? A flower ;)

34) Have you gotten injured by this person? Weeelllllll, on accident, but not seriously injured....I haven't even been bruised, now THAT'S a miracle for those who know me.

35) Does this person have any kids? Nopers

36) How far have you traveled with this person? 4 hours

37) Would you marry this person? Of course. Hee hee

38) What is your first memory of them? Being in the youth group

39) Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight that lasted more than 2 months? Us, fight? That's funny.

40) Have you and this person gone clubbing? Not yet....just kidding people

41) Do you know how to make this person feel happy? I think so.

42) Do you and this person talk alot? Yeah, but it's all good.

43) Do you like this person? Yes, I do....and I love him.

44) Has this person yelled at you? Never

45) Have you and this person got into a fist fight? Again, never

46) Do you think this person is good looking? Have you seen him? The answer is a definite yes!

47) When is the next time you'll see this person? Tonight

48) When was the last time you saw this person? Yesterday.

49) What is the most memorable thing you've done with this person? There are soooooo many memories.....let's see....most recent.....went on a picnic with him on Saturday.

50) If you could change anything about them...would you? No, I love him for who he is and that's how it should be.

My friend Matt Berry

Hey, everyone, as most of you have probably already heard, my friend Matt Berry took his life on Friday morning. It has been a rough weekend for everyone who knew and loved Matt. That is for sure.

I've never been close to someone who has taken their life, so this has been pretty hard for me to deal with. When I heard, I was in shock and then I just cried for a good 30 minutes and just prayed for his family and friends. All throughout the rest of the night it would just hit me so hard that I would either tear up or start crying all over again. Sunday morning was hard to with everyone asking questions. I can hold up pretty well as long as I don't have to talk about things or think about them. I'm sure you all know how that is though.

I loved Matt, he was someone who could always brighten my day. Always saying something silly to make me laugh until I cried. His laugh was contagious, it made everyone around him join in even if they didn't know what he was laughing about. He was straight forward and genuine. Never beat around the bush. I loved debating with him about things cause no matter what, we could still be friends after the fact.

Gosh, he was a true friend to me for a season. Where we were both going through hard times and encouraging each other despite the situation. I learned more about his life then ever during that time. Enough to know that he was a really good guy.

I can still hear his laugh in my head and see his face. I remember him coming over and eating dinner or Sunday lunch with my family. I remember sitting on the back porch in the summer and just talking about stuff. Ohhh or our weekly trips to Rita's on Tuesday's that summer. So much fun. I'm glad that God granted me those moments with him.

Anyway, I would ask that you all be praying for the family and for his friends who knew him well. That God's exceeding grace and peace be upon them. That God would comfort them during this time. I know it's a rough time for everyone. Matt will always be remembered and loved.

Just wanted everyone to know that I am..........

No, I'm not engaged. Geez. =P Ha ha Gottcha.

No, I figured that I would write a short post on what is going on in my life. Things are amazing. I never, ever, ever thought that I could be so blessed with such an amazing guy in my life. He brings joy to my life and it's great to just do the little things with him: walking in the park, going on a drive, etc. I love his commitment and security in God. I love how he just loves to be with me and likes to take care of me. Yes, ladies, men like this DO exist.

A note to all the single people out there.....again, and I cannot stress this enough.....waiting for the right person is sooooooooooo worth the wait. I'm not kidding. When I finally gave everything over to God and just said, "Hey God, here ya go, I'm not worrying about this anymore and I'm just gonna do whatever You tell me to do." That's when He started moving in ways that I never thought were possible.

My family and my friends love Ryan and love us together. That is such a blessing too. You have no idea. We went to KY this past weekend for him to meet my Dad and Sharon and everything went really well. I am sooo excited about what God is doing!!!!

I will keep you all updated. <3

Amazed

So, as I'm writing this blog, I never would have thought that I would be putting up a pic of me and my best friend and saying that I am now dating my best friend, but I am.

I have had multiple requests asking me about how this all happened, so I figure since this is my blog, I will write about it. (See how many people are REALLY reading this.....aka I expect comments. Ha ha)

About 7 years ago, Ryan started coming to ERC and at the time I was a youth leader. So, he was just an aquaintance at that time. I remember him and he remembers me, but we never hung out or anything. Then he felt led to go somewhere else about 5 years ago. Little did we know that God was just allowing us space to grow and mature. :)

I believe it was September (Ryan's proofing this before I post, so yeah, around then...ha ha) Ryan started coming back to ERC. I didn't notice him at first cause he sat on the other side of the sanctuary. My sis mentioned it to me one day though and asked if I had seen him. Then, he came over to the promise land....ha ha just kidding....he did come to sit on our side though, so I said hi, he said hi. Thus started the beginning of what God was getting ready to do. We started talking after service.....a lot. I finally got up the gall to ask for his e-mail, which I didn't use until a month later. What can I say, I was a little shy. With the e-mails/IM's started a friendship that will stand the test of time. I'm not kidding. It was and still is wonderful. We have hung out every weekend since Christmas weekend and that's been great too. I had so many people asking if we were a couple and I would always say no. (I guess I was in denial.)

Then we get to a month ago........I started liking Ryan. I DID NOT want to. I have this tendacy to fall for my best guy friends. So, I was praying about it and God said for me to be patient and wait. To not do my usual thing and go tell him and to not initiate anything either. It was hard, but the reward far exceeds anything I could have ever hoped or dreamed of.

March 1st...early in the morning....after we had watched 3 movies.....I was like, "Well, I guess I'm gonna go." (I wasn't too happy, cause I was really hoping that he would have said something by then.) Then he said, "So, how long are we gonna do this just friends thing?" I replied, "I guess that all depends on you." So, at that point we became "official." It has been a joy and a peace and a love (yes, I said love) that I have never known. God's hand is on this and I am amazed that God would love me so much to make someone just for me. Someone who "fits." I always heard people say, "Oh when you know, you know." I never understood it until now, but it is true. I can't explain it, but when you know, you know. It is the most amazing feeling in the world to know that God gave you His best (that's what He told me on my way home that morning). When everyone is in agreement with the relationship and feels a peace about it and is excited about it right along with you.

So, my advice to all the single ladies and guys out there.....it is SO worth the wait. When you finally give EVERYTHING over to God and tell Him to take care of it. That's when God gave me Ryan. Never in my wildest dreams would I have ever expected to be with him, but God knew exactly what we both needed and God answered EVERY prayer that I had prayed for what I wanted in a guy, not even that, He gave me more. I am amazed and thankful to my God, my Savior, my King, my everything!!!! I am also thankful for Ryan, for waiting for me and for loving me.

Patience

So, I always think it's great when people are like, yeah, God's taking me through a season of patience. I think God has had to take me through multiple seasons of patience because I never quite got what it was about. Ha ha

Well, lately, I had been in a season of patience. It was one of the hardest, yet easiest ones that I have ever had to go through.

At the beginning of the year, I didn't make "New Year's Resolutions," but I did make some promises to God. I think that's more powerful anyway. A few of them were to get into a healthier state physically, take more risks, to just be open to whatever God wanted for me, and all that good stuff. I was finally to the point in my life where I was content where God had me and so I was joyful all the time. I was able to take things in stride and just be patient. Not doing anything unless God told me to on certain issues.

Then came the testing. Ha ha God was pretty much like, if you want this to happen, then you are going to have to let go. Not the way that you usually handle things, but let Me handle things. So, I'm like, okay God, whatever You say. So, I took my hands off of a situation that started out to be not so difficult to take my hands off of. I was tempted to do/say some things during this season, but God would always check me and tell me no. So, I obeyed. I am so happy that I did. I admit that this past week was probably the hardest, but it's always the hardest right before things turn around.

All I gotta say is that it pays to be patient and to truly take your hands off and let God do His thing. It's turned out way better than I could have ever expected. If you have seen my myspace/facebook status, then you probably know what this is about, but I tell you. When you let God do it and it's done right.......it's amazing! :)

Amilo tutto! (What language is this? Do you know what it says?)

Yet another survey....sorry peps.....not much to talk about right now

45 of the most random things you probably never needed to know about someone


whats your name spelt backwards?: nahallac
What did you do last night?: I stayed home
The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?: Music
Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?: Yes
Last time you swam in a pool?: Last summer
What are you wearing?: Red/black/gray pinstripe pants and a grey shirt
How many cars have you owned?: 2
Type of music you dislike most?: Country
Are you registered to vote?: Yes
Do you have cable?: Yes
What kind of computer do you use?: Sony Vaio laptop
Ever made a prank phone call?: Too many
You like anyone right now?: Eh
Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?: Neither, though I would do bungee over sky
Furthest place you ever traveled?: India
What's your favorite comic strip?: Peanuts?
Do u know all the words to the national anthem?: Most
Shower, morning or night?: Usually morning
Best movie you've seen in the past month?: Hmmm.....Underworld 3
Favorite pizza toppings?: Depends on where I get it from
Chips or popcorn?: Chips
What cell phone provider do you have?: Verizon
Have you ever smoked peanut shells?: No
Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?: No
Orange Juice or apple?: OJ
Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?: Joanne
favorite chocolate bar?: Before.....Kit Kat
Who is your longest friend and how long?: Beth...I'm appoximating 17 years
Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?: Never.
Have you ever won a trophy?: Sure
Favorite arcade game?: Is Tetris one? If not, Pac-man
Ever ordered from an infomercial?: No
Sprite or 7-UP?: Sierra Mist
Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?: Yes, thank God when those days were over
Last thing you bought at Walgreens?: Ummm.....index cards
Ever thrown up in public?: Yes, I feel so bad for the other people who have to endure that
Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?: I think that both are a possibility
Do you believe in love at first sight?: Not really
SPONGEBOB OR JIMMY NEUTRON?: Neither
Did you have long hair as a young kid?: Yes, to my booty
What message is on your voicemail machine?: I don't have one
Where would you like to go right now?: Home
Whats the name of your pet?: Jasper
What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?: An orange one that rolls.....probably some stuff from Africa
What do you think about most?: Life


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Death

Above: My sis, Mamaw C., and me

Above: My Mamaw C and me

This is a post from my myspace on February 24, 2008. My Mamaw C. passed away on February 22, 2008. I still have my moments where I miss her terribly, but that's okay. You wouldn't miss or think of someone that you didn't love dearly. :)

So, when you have a death in the family, of course it makes you reflect and think about all sorts of things. My life since I found out my Mamaw C. passed away on Friday morning has been so emotionally draining that it's ridiculous. It's not just because of her death, but it's a lot of things going on in my life all at once.

I have realized that some people are not what they seem, I have realized that there are people in my life that I am happy to have beside me during a storm, I have realized that family is one of the most important things in this world, I have realized a lot about myself too.

We had a purity conference this weekend too. It was great actually. Just needed to give mention to that.

Anyway, my Mamaw C. was one of the most caring, loving, compassionate, amazing, stubborn, hard-headed, determined, wouldn't hurt a fly, loved Jesus with all her heart women. She amazed me all the time. So, yesterday while going through some of her personal items and pulling out stuff that made me smile because of certain memories, I could only think of the fact that the world is only temporary. Thankfully.

What have I done to make an impact in my world? It's not just what you do in your past, but what did you do today or even this past week that has made an impact? I said I had been very comtemplative today, so bear with me. I do have somewhere to go...........

Anyway, while I was at the funeral today and with all the old hymns and everything that was playing, I expected to only be thinking of my Mamaw, and I was, but you know what I was honestly sitting there balling my eyes out about? My family. My unsaved family. I was crying out to God that my family would be saved. That my Dad would FINALLY see the truth. I seriously could have just ate some carpet during the funeral and prayed. That's how strong the burden was at that time. My Mamaw, I am going to miss her dearly, but I will see her someday and she is happy being in Heaven, running on streets of gold, talking with Jesus, and being with her husband, son, brothers, parents, family members, and friends that were already home. I can't be sad for her. She's not suffering anymore.

Anyway, I wrote this for two reasons. 1.) Maybe you, the reader, can understand/feel what I am trying my best to say. That you would realize that you're not alone in your desire to make a difference and to do more, to care more, to pray and cry out to God more. 2.) For me to remember this day. That today there have been revelations and reminders. Today, things are going to change.

Love you all and thanks for reading if you did. :)

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Indepth Survey About You [Perfect For Allowing People To Get To Know You Better]


::Background Info::
Name: Mary
Age: 27
Date of Birth: 9-12
Place of Birth: KY
Ethnic Background/Ancestry: Irish and American Indian
Languages You Speak: English for sure....ha ha A bit of Spanish, Swahili, and ASL
Relationship Status: Single
School Situation: Non-existant right now
Job Situation: Admin Assist for the GOV
Do you drive?: Yes
Do you smoke cigarettes?: Def negative
Do you drink alcohol on a regular basis?: Not even occasionally
Do you do recreational drugs at least occasionally?: Uhhhh......no
Family Situation [Who do you live with?]: My parents....hey, have you heard about the economy lately?
::Your Appearance [Physical]::
Natural hair color: Uhh....almost black
Hair Type [Straight, Wavy, Curly, etc]: Straight is preferable, but it's naturally curly
Long or short?: Medium at the moment...heading towards long...then if you know me well....short again. ha ha
Current Hair Style: Messy and in a ponytail
Eye color: Golden brown
Eye shape: Almond
Do you have freckles?: A few scattered
Skin tone/complexion: Fair....very fair...they should put me in a Twilight movie, they would save on make-up...ha ha
Do you have a tan?: It's winter in Ohio....what do you think?
Height: 5' 6 1/2"
Body Type/Build: Ummm.....exactly where I should be at this point of the journey :)
Shoe Size: 11
Any scars?: I'm a KY girl, of course I have scars
Physical feature that stands out the most: My eyes I suppose
::Your Appearance [Fashion]::
Tattoos?: Nopers
Piercings?: 9 in my ears
What subculture do you gravitate towards the most?: I hate labels.
How would you describe your style?: Me
Tshirts and jeans -or- Dresses/Suits?: Jeans
Sneakers -or- Heels/Dress Shoes?: Flip-flops
Tight or baggy pants?: Ones that fit
What color do you wear most often?: That's easy....black
What do you wear on an average day around the house?: PJ'S!!!!
What do you wear to sleep?: See above
What is your jewelry style?: Next to none except for earrings
How about shoes? Any brands you love/wear a lot?: Old Navy flip-flops
Do you paint your nails?: Not usually. I will keep up with my toenails in the summer though.
What is your make-up style?: Extreme. =D Eye make-up only
Do you carry around bags or purses?: I guess some would consider them bags
What are your favorite accessories?: My earrings and sunglasses
Do you wear sunglasses a lot?: When the sun is out...unless I'm tanning, then you get interesting tan lines on your face
What is your favorite way to dress? [Sexy, Cute, Modest, Professional, etc]: Depends on my mood
Does fashion mean a lot to you?: Not really, I go my own way when it comes to fashion
::Your Beliefs::
Do you have a religion/spirituality?: I have a relationship with God
Do you believe in a supreme being?: Of course
Life after death?: Definitely
Heaven and Hell?: Most definitely
Angels and Demons?: Ohhhh yes....when you've seen them, you'll never doubt again
Aliens?: Ummm.....not really
Reincarnation?: Nope
Horoscopes?: Come on people...seriously? No
Fortune Telling?: Nope.
If you have a faith/relgion, is it the most important thing in your life?: Absolutely 100% yes
What are your views on abortion?: It is murder, pure and simple
Gay marriage?: Abomination
Politics?: Super conservative
Political Correctness?: Eh
Are you more Liberal or Conservative?: I think I already answered that
How do you feel about sex outside of marriage?: Bad, bad, bad....it's a sin....why waste something so precious as your wedding night with the person you will spend the rest of your life with?
::Dating and Relationships::
Would you date a person with a different religion than you?: Not likely...that is important
How about polar opposite political beliefs?: Mmm.....I don't know
What are qualities you look for in a bf/gf?: Let me go see what I put on some of my old dating sites...ha ha...no, hardcore Christian, stands for his beliefs, good personality, funny, loves to travel, etc. Physically: Eyes, teeth/smile, arms, not too thin and not to big either, etc.
What kind of personality issues do you dislike?: Arrogance, compulsive liars, fakes, egotistical, etc.
Looks or personality?: Both...they go hand in hand in my opinion
Are you shallow?: I don't think so
Do you fall in love easily?: Used to
How do you know you like someone?: When I finally stop being oblivious Ha ha
What do you usually do when you like someone, or think you like someone?: I used to go tell them and then get shut down... :) ... now, I'm just gonna wait. It's worth waiting for.
Do you like to take things fast or slow?: Medium
Casual dating -or- Serious committed relationship?: Definitely serious committed
What is your philosophy on dating/love/relationships?: I think that you shouldn't date until you are in the place where you want to get married. That's where it's supposed to lead, right?
Is there a difference between liking someone and having a crush on someone?: I think so. Crushes are fleeting cause you don't know them and liking someone takes time because that requires knowing them.
Do you like the other person to make the move first?: At this point in my life.....yes.
What would ruin a relationship?: That's a very broad question.....lots of things.
Would your ideal guy/girl call you? Or would you call them?: Mary ;)
Would you expect them to make all the moves?: Nah.
Would you expect them to be with you 24/7?: Definitely no. I need some space.
Are you a jealous person?: Not usually. Only if they constantly bring up how hot other girls are in my presence. That's just wrong by the way.
Obsessive?: No.
Overly emotional?: Not in a relationship.
Do you think you would be a good gf/bf?: I'm a wonderful GF actually.
::Your Future::
What do you want to do with your life?: Whatever God wants me to do. I know that travelling and missions work is definitely a part of that plan.
Is getting married important to you?: Yes. I know I won't be single the rest of my life. Right now though, I'm not fretting over it. God's got it all in control.
Want kids?: I think so. ;)
How many?: Probably no more than 2.
Do you wanna be rich?: Yes, doesn't everyone?
If you had to choose between a huge career and a family, would you?: Family always comes first.
What is your idea of success?: Being a productive person in the kingdom of God.
What is your main goal in life?: I think I have answered that with all the above questions. :)
::A Little Bit of Random Stuff::
Favorite music?: I'm an ecclectic. No country or polka though. ;)
Favorite bands/artists?: That could be an extensive list: Plumb, Emery, Tenth Avenue North, Within Temptation, Jesus Culture.......
Any plans for today?: Yes, gonna go hang with one of my best friends.
What do you like to do with your free time?: Be with my God, read, chill in my PJ's, be with my family and friends, travel, have fun, etc.


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It's all about me

So, I had everyone fill out a survey about me...if you want to be added to the list, e-mail me. Ha ha


2. Summarize me in three words: You are AMAZING.(SK) Great Godly woman (SM) Cool, Fun, Good friend. (RH) you are sweet. :D (S) Compassionate, Dramatic :-), NJERI (CB) crazy, funny, good friend (JD)


3. Where did we meet: The airport! :D (SK) In Terre Haute, IN (CB)


4. Take a stab at my middle name: Elizabeth?? (SK) ann? (SM) Louis Antoinette Sniggashnerkasburgensteinofferson (RH) Louise (CB) haha we talk about this all the time because I forget lol...and still i succeed at forgetting lol (JD) ((The correct answer is: Louise))


5. How long have you known me: 6 years (SM) I don't know.....recently? couple months...or 5 years :P (RH) Round about 13 years (CB) since August 2008 (JD)


9. Am I happy: ohhh yes :D (SK) Absolutely (SM) I believe so...... (RH) you're always a bubbly, sweet person; but no one is ALWAYS happy. haha. :P (S) almost always (JD) ((Absolutely, 100%, yes! {I sound like Randy from American Idol. Ha ha}))


10. Am I a good person: Yep……………When you're asleep. (RH) yes very (JD)


11. What was your first impression of upon meeting me/seeing me: she's soooo crazy lolol (SK) that you are a very good person (SM) Oh hai! OMGOSH Havent scene joo forevas! (RH) i thought you were so cool. lol. :] (S) "Don't like her!!! Scared she'll sit on me!!!" (CB) hmmm she seems really nice... (JD)


12. What's one of my favorite things to do: getting your hair dyed lol (SK) shop for mac makeup (SM) Deliver throat punches to midgets. (RH) praise god! annnnd find things with butterflies on them. ahaha. (wild guess on the second one. hahaha.) (S) Worship (CB) hmm you have many (JD) ((The correct answer is: almost all of the above.))


13. Am I funny: Looking. Haha, JK...yes. (CB) yes always (JD)


14. How do you make me smile: being my blonde self rofl (SK) by hugging me (SM) Attention ladies......I enjoyed "The Notebook". (RH) I talk about when you used to babysit me. (CB)


15. What's my favorite type of music: christian rock (plum, emery, tenth avenue north) (SK) hmm, you like a lot of types....country or polka definatly. (RH) Anything Plumb-ish. ;-) (CB) hmm well you like many types (JD)


16. Have you ever seen me cry: in church when she's talking about her heart for young girls. (SK) i believe so...only because god is so good (JD)


17. Can I sing?: yeahh (SK) yepper (SM) Tis what I've heard but alas, mine ears have yet to alight upon the grace that is your heavenly voice. (RH) i bet you can. :] (S) yes you have a great voice (JD)


18. What is the best feature about me: your eyes (SK) your eyes (SM) Hmm, am I allowed to say this? haha jk. It's your personality! (RH) you've got a great personality. (S) Your eyes (CB) your eyes i think (JD)


19. Am I shy or outgoing: shy...just teasing (SM) Outgoing to people you know. Sorta like me. (RH) i'd say you're outgoing. definitely. :] (S) Outgoing for the most part (CB)


20. Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules: kinda both ;D (SK) uh...rebel! (SM) You defiantly stand under the "no loitering" sign as you rigidly follow the Word. :D (RH) mehhh, a good mix? hahaha. (S) You follow the rules :-) (CB) hmmm just depends lol (JD)


21. Do I have any special talents: doing makeup! (SK) yes...your a make up pro...to me that is a very special talent! (SM) You're good at scategories, and picking out what movie is playing without seeing it. And then there's the Bo staff skills. (RH) making people happyyy. (S) You can make sweets like none other!!! (CB)


22. Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what): a mix of glam, sporty, and...LOVABLE lol (SK) punk/glam (that is a word by the way :) (SM) Vampire. (RH) You are something else...Haha your style is all Mary (CB)


23. I'm hot? Am I not? Go ahead, you can say ... : defffinitely hot ;D (SK) girl your hot :) (SM) i think you're very pretty. (S) I think you are beautiful (JD)


25. Have you ever hugged me: yes..best hugger ever! (SM) yes I have BFF (JD)


27. What is my favorite food: hmm for you at first i wanted to say mexican and then i thought chinese... (SM) Juice. Especially prune juice (RH) HOW about food in general for me lol (JD) ((The correct answer is: Everything except prune juice. Blah. Ha ha Nah, I guess African food is my fav.))


29. Am I dating anyone: you better not be or i should know about it :) (SM) Jesus (CB) Not at the moment :0) (JD) ((The correct answer is: Nope. Anyone have any suggestions? =P))


30. If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be: MC! (SK) cheeky ( b/c i love your smile) (SM) Um....nice lady? hmm, how about Count Von Mary. (RH) MAR MAR (JD)


31. What's your favorite memory of me: playing volleyball! (SK) every time i saw you in the church i can always count on a hug from you! (SM) I......I've got nothing....We usually have a lot of fun when we play games. (RH) When you found a twice folded potato chip and I tricked you into letting me "see it" and I ate it. You were so mad, then you yelled at me and told me that I owed you a Coke. Of course, I refused. (CB) I have many (JD)


33. Who do I like right now: Jesus! Lol (SK) God (SM) I have no idea. I'm sure you like Jesus. (RH) Im still asking that question (JD) ((The correct answer is: No one…not really anyway))


34. What is my worst habit: being a smart alleck...but I am too, so maybe it's a good thing ;D lololol (SK) always buying make up (SM) Leaving hair in the bathtub. ;-) (CB) ((The correct answer is: Overanalyzing things, I guess))


35. If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what is the one thing I would bring? your mac makeup lol (SK) a bible (SM) Chapstick. (RH) hmmmmmmmmmmm...a cell phone to call someone and get home! hahaha. (S) Chapstick is all you need, satisfaction guaranteed. (CB) your zune if you could (JD) ((The correct answer is: I honestly don’t know, but chapstick would be a plus. Ha ha))


36. Are we friends: si :) (SK) Yes (SM) Yes (RH) mhm! (S) Sure! :-) (CB) I'd hope so , My BFF (JD)


38. Do I believe in God? "Written on the bullet...say yes to pull the trigger"...Yes (CB) Yes you do (JD)


39. Am I family oriented? Sure, in a concealed, to yourself kinda way :D Like me! (RH) Very (CB)


40. Who is my best friend? Heather P.? (SK) hmm..your sister (SM) You have multiple....I think it's Beth? (RH) Beth Yao (CB) I guess you have many (JD) ((The correct answer is: Many))

Friday the 13th....

So, I decided to post the words to a song, by my new favorite band, Tenth Avenue North. You definitely need to check them out. Anyway, he pretty much explains why they wrote the song at the beginning. The one part of the bridge that I want to point out is, "Chasing lovers that won’t satisfy." How many times do we chase the things that won't satisfy us? We search for fulfillment, but we don't find it? Why? I think it's because most of the time we haven't been on our knees asking for the lover of our soul to reveal to us what we are supposed to do or what we need. I've been guilty of that.


Beloved
Mike Donehey


“The Bible is filled with wedding metaphors. When it talks about Christ and his church, it uses the analogy of a husband and a wife. In fact you could even argue that the reason marriage exists is to point to the greater reality of Christ. Over and over and over again, Christ calls the church, not just his wife, but his wayward wife. I was thinking one day, I wondered what it would sound like if Christ gave his wedding vows to me, as his church, as his bride and what those would sound like. So ‘Beloved’ is Jesus making vows to a wayward wife and the beautiful thing about Jesus is that when you’re his bride, divorce is not an option.”




Love of my life, Look deep in my eyes, There you will find what you need


Give me your life, The lust and the lies, And the past you’re afraid I might see, You’ve been running away from me


Chorus:
You’re my beloved
lover I’m yours
Death shall not part us
It’s you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we’ll be
My love it unites us and it binds you to me
It’s a mystery


Love of my life, Look deep in my eyes, There you will find what you need


I'm the giver of life, I’ll clothe you in white, My immaculate bride you will be, Come running home to me


Bridge:
You’ve been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers that won’t satisfy
Won’t you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips and you’ll taste new life


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V-day....

I "borrowed" this blog from Kara Miller (Her blogspot: http://whenwordsfailmusicexpresses.blogspot.com). Don't worry, I asked to "borrow" it. Ha ha I thought it was insightful and may encourage some of you single folks out there with V-day right around the corner. Enjoy!


How do you wait for heaven....


Then the time came whenthe risk it took to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. - Anais Nin


It's little things that often remind us that God is listening. For days the desire for a boyfriend that would eventually become my husband and the father of my children, stirred in my heart as it so often does. I wanted to scream my desire from the nearest rooftop (we don't have mountains in north Florida) but shame told me that I should just keep how I was feeling bottled up inside. While blogging this afternoon I couldn't keep it quiet any more. Near the end I threw in that I'm tired of being single. I quickly followed it up with instructions to all who may read to save their preaching... I already know it all!


Last night I finally finished reading "Talent is Never Enough" by John Maxwell. I had been vacillating over what to read next. The debate was between a "fun" book, like Jane Austen or another fictional book from my roommate's library, or a spiritual one. Preparing to go to bed I put the finished book back in its place on the shelf (in alpha order by author) and started pondering again. I read the back of one book I had thought of reading when suddenly a thought struck me. "Do I have that Captivate book? I think the author's name starts with an 'e'." Sure enough in the "e" section was "Captivating" by John and Stasi Eldridge. (Yes, I have so many books that I don't really know what I have.)


Before I even cracked the cover I got the sense that by the end many of its pages will be stained with my tears. The quote above was one of the first things to tug at my heart. The second was, "We feel unseen, even by those who are closest to us. We feel unsought - that no one has the passion or the courage to pursue us, to get past our messiness to find the woman deep inside..." Yup! That was only page 7.


Then Stasi wrote, "When we are young, we want to be precious to someone - especially Daddy. As we grow older, the desire matures into a longing to be pursued, desired, wanted as a woman." She then wrote of a young woman who asked, "Why am I so embarrassed of the depth of my desire for this?" Stasi went on to write, "We were talking about her life as a single woman, and how she love her work but would much rather be married. 'I don't want to hang my life on it, but still, I yearn.' Of course. You're a woman."


WOW! There was such freedom in that. There's NO SHAME in my desiring a husband, a life-long best friend and co-adventurer. God made me to desire to love and be loved.


The lyrics to Born to Fly are all that came to mind when titling this blog:


I've been telling my dreams to the scarecrow
About the places that I'd like to see
I say, "Friend do you think I'll ever get there?"
Oh, and he just stands there smiling back at me


So, I confess my sins to the preacher
About the love I've been praying to find
Is there a brown eyed boy in my future?
He says, "Girl you've got nothing but time."


But how do you wait for heaven?
And who has that much time?
And how do you keep your feet on the ground
When you know
That you were born to fly?


**Please excuse any errors. I typed this entire entry from my cell phone!**

My Anti-Valentine........

Anywho, for those that have seen my quote up on any of my status':


"We fall in love when our imagination projects nonexistent perfection upon another person. One day, the fantasy evaporates and with it, love dies."


The reason I put this quote up is because it is so true. We have all these expectations that we set up because of what we have seen in movies, heard in a song, read in a book, seen on the outside of a couple's relationship (the outside can look perfect, but it's not always so), etc. So, when we fall in love, that person is "perfect." The thing is that none of us are perfect, especially by the standards that God sets before us. We can strive for perfection, but until we are in Heaven, we aren't, nor will we ever be perfect here on the earth. So, when we set someone up on the pedestal of perfection, most of the time we are disappointed, hurt, feel betrayed, etc. Why am I saying all of this? Because I have been there. I have put people up on that pedestal before and then when they crashed, they knocked me down right with them.


Our idea of love should be based on what God says that love is: love is patient, kind, does not envy, does not boast, it is not proud, rude, self-seeking, easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs, love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth, it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres and most of all love never fails. (1 Cor. 13) How many of you have had any of these emotions? Jealousy, keeping records of wrongs, not trusting......yep, been there. Again, we're not perfect, but these are the things that we should live by. This is how God loves us. He's always patient. He is never rude. He keeps no record of our wrongs once we've asked for forgiveness. Well, I could keep going, but I think you get the point.


God's love for us surpasses anything that we can even imagine or think. When we make a commitment to God it's a lifelong thing that lasts through eternity. So, when you get in a dating relationship with someone or if it's just a friend or a family member; don't set them on a pedestal. It's a commitment. No one belongs up on a pedestal except God. He's the only one that won't fall or fail you. I guess that's what I've been trying to say this whole time.


Anywho, more to come on this subject matter. Stay tuned. ;) <3

To go deep or to not go deep.....that is the question.

So, as I am reflecting on just the absolute goodness of God to His children. I'm wondering if I should make this a deep blog or just keep it simple. Hmmm....


What it really comes down to in my life right now is that I am so extremely blessed with things that I didn't even know I needed. Friends that can make me laugh, think, and just let me be myself around them. Understand my zany sense of humor and everything. Ha ha I didn't know that I needed them, but God always knows what He is doing and what we need regardless of if we think we are fine or not. :)


Things are stirring on the inside of me. There are changes in the wind and opportunities to take. This year, I have decided that I will take more risks and that I won't let fear hold me back. I have also decided that I will do the things that I have never done before but wanted to....go to a hockey game, Renaissance Festival, Corn Maze, etc.


Bettering myself for me and no one else. Ha ha That's goes in all aspects of my life: spiritually, physically, mentally, etc. I have been trying to eat better and also working out. I don't want something as simple as bad health to hold me back from doing anything that my heart desires.


I refuse to be a part of "drama" filled people's lives. It's not worth my sanity. If it's none of my business, then I honestly don't want to know. So, don't tell me. I'll live without getting caught up in that junk.


I guess this is just a rant/rave about things, but maybe some of you feel the same way. I don't know.